Undefined

I call myself "undefined" because I have never been able to tack down exactly who I am. If you ask me my favorite color, I will tell you a color. Ask me again a week later. It will probably be another color. People who know me, know that I have moved 9 times in the last 5 years, have been to 3 different colleges, changed my major 4 times (and am now officially undeclared), and the rate of me starting a book is almost double of the rate of actually finishing one.

Once in a great while I re-assess the roles I play out in my life. Here's what I came up with at the start of the year: wife, grocery clerk, minister to youth, aspiring writer, child of God. These are not roles that I necessarily excel at, but more of roles that I desire to be.

First of all, wife. I love my husband. I truly see Him as a gift from God. He is my friend, my confidante, my balance, my love, and (God willing) the future father of my children. We have been married for a year and a half. I'll be the first to admit that I am not the perfect wife. Just the one role of "wife" brings on so many other roles and responsibilities: house-cleaner, supporter, lover, helper, etc. I've probably failed at each one of these at one time or another. However, I am trying to learn through my failings. My husband deserves the best that I can give him.

Secondly, I have a job. I work at a wonderful grocery store called Trader Joe's. It's not only a great company to work for, it's a great place to shop. I work full time and LOVE it. I won't bore you with the details of my responsibilities while on the job, but I will tell you this: If you don't like your job, quit and find one you love. It is so worth it!

Ministering to youth. My husband, Chris, is the youth director of our church. I have been so blessed to be able to support him in this ministry. For me, this has been so rewarding. If anyone from our youth group is reading this: I love you! This role has taught me so much. I have learned to be a mother, a counselor, a servant, and a listener. Most of all, I have discovered a passion (something I had been praying about for a while).

Aspiring writer. This role is recent and undeveloped. I want to discover more of my talents and this is one area in my life I want to explore. I hope to post some of my writing for critique.

With all the different roles and activities that pull at my heartstrings, one thing is for certain: I am a child of God. I know that I am a part of His family because of what Jesus has done for me. He took away the sin that separated me from God. Now I can go to God freely and confidently. I want to display Christ with my life. I want to show God's glory shining through me; to mirror His image in my actions and words.

Thank you for letting me pour out my heart to you. I look forward to our times together in the future.